Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
Psalm 139:7 (NKJV)
The presence of God surrounds us, marking our step in standing in front of us, and when we do not see Him, He is behind us, watching and protecting our walk. Surely his hand is above us: "You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me" (v. 5). The believer, though trusting in the help of his Lord in the awareness that he knows every aspect of his life, can not deny how there are moments of existence in which an immense desire for flight assails him. There are several reasons that can lead to evasion: a betrayal, a disappointment, a failure, a trauma or a physical problem. Scripture is rich in characters who have been or have been driven to flee: Moses after a murder, Jacob threatened by his brother after the "theft" of the birthright, Judge Jefte is turned away from the brothers, Jonah from the ninevites and the mission to announce them the plans of God, Elijah from Jezebel. To these we can also add the second son of the loving father, who decides to leave the family home and go far. There are situations that could encourage people to leave the community, considering this the easiest solution. But are we sure?
King David in Psalm 55 wanted wings to fly far away: "Oh, that I had wings like a dove! I would fly away and be at rest. Indeed, I would wander far off, And remain in the wilderness. I would hasten my escape from the windy storm and tempes". When an impetuous wind blows on our life, when the storm envelops and overwhelms us, the comprehensible desire and the common aspiration is to flee away, rather than to go against and through or overcome it. David, in a time already complicated by the revolt of his son Absalom, must come to terms with the betrayal of his friend and councilor Ahitofel, who passed right into the ranks of the rebel (2 Samuel 15:12). He was a trusted friend, an intimate confidant, a prayer companion from whom such action would have never been expected. The profound disappointment pushes him into despair, and having no rest in lamentation and with a heart that spasima takes refuge in prayer. From all we can try to escape, and often when we give way to escape it is an opportunity to be found by God, as it happens for Moses and Jacob, or to find ourselves (come to itself) as it was for the prodigal son. The singing of Psalm 139 expresses above all the closeness of the Lord, whose hand is on our life. He is truly patient with us, broad in compassion and great in kindness.
The human being, whoever he is, will have to struggle to remain faithful. Each one could count a series of disappointments and betrayals. We should be equally honest in listing those practiced: "nobody thinks he is standing". Family diatribes, disagreements between brothers and sisters, conjugal misunderstandings, discussions at work ... here is the daily bread. "He who heeds the word wisely will find good, And whoever trusts in the Lord, happy is he" (Proverbs 16:20 NKJV). Never run away from God, and when we do not have the courage to face our challenges, let us be led as it was for Moses from Pharaoh, David against Goliath, Jacob in the meeting with Esau. Yes, the battle that we are not able to fight alone, let us face them in the name of the Lord, surrender ourselves to Him by invoking that His will be fulfilled in our life. I do not know if you are now far away or if you are about to leave for an escape. I hope this reflection will help you to make the best decision, opting for the will of the Lord.
Weekly Bible reading plan
February 18 Leviticus 23-24; Mark 1:1-22
February 19 Leviticus 25; Mark 1:23-45
February 20 Leviticus 26-27; MarK 2
February 21 Numbers 1-2; Mark 3:1-19
February 22 Numbers 3-4; Mark 3:20-35
February 23 Numbers 5-6; Mark 4:1-20
February 24 Numbers 7-8; Mark 4:21-41